Heaven knows we all need some kind of therapy in this life, so I have done my research on therapy and damn, there is a lot of stuff that qualifies as therapy! Since my life blew up and I have to figure out what my new existence in this world should be about, I have been trying to find the right kind of therapy that can help point me in a positive direction. I started with talk therapy and I have to say my therapist was great to talk to! She acknowledged all of my feelings,

This weekend I took a drive to Clearwater and on the way I had to pass by the Villages. Now for those of you that know about the Villages, just the idea of the place evokes either feelings of “yuck”, “Can’t wait to move there” or “not for me but damn those old people are something!”. For those of you who have never heard of the Villages, it is a retirement community made up of three distinct themes, and has more acreage and STD’s then every college campus in the United Stat

Amazon is truly a marvel! I have found things I never knew existed but somehow desperately needed and have been able to receive it in just one day! I have taken beautiful vacations, been given jewelry and shoes, and eaten the most amazing steak dinners but I don’t think I have ever been happier than I was yesterday when receiving the kitchen sink sponge holder I ordered just the day before. As I get older its amazing the value shift from simply getting things to getting thi

As I’m getting older and am now single, I notice the things around me more and more and what’s around me most are my dogs. They really are amusing, educational and a little reflective in their personality traits. Since I have three of them they each show me something different about my life. My oldest Jack is a 12 year old Pit Bull mix. He enjoys a nice soft bed as do I. He is always up for a snack, particularly a good bag of chips, yep, me too. He prefers the comforts o

A piece of my heart was left in the sand Exploding with hope when you took my hand That beach where I met you, light and carefree The spot where I loved the you, you’d never be Younger and wilder and oh so naïve Not knowing back then what I’d now have to grieve It wasn’t the sun that brought you to light But the monster you were when the day turned to night Now a piece of my heart remains on that beach I left it on purpose just out of reach Away from the memories, away fr

Growing up my mother loved dressing me and my sister up in cute little frilly dresses, white tights and shiny black shoes. We were just so cute! (Yuck) Now my sister didn’t really seem to mind but me…oh hell no. The second I was allowed, that dress was off, the tights were off, those horrible shoes were off and I was in a one piece terry cloth short outfit. No shoes for me, running through the field across the street, making mud pies and building forts was the way to live!

Now I don’t know if it’s a new thing or has been going on for awhile, but guys (or Nigerian women, who the hell really knows) are creating profiles on dating sites not to get dates, or to sleep with as many women as they can, or even to find a meaningful relationship, but to try and get you to invest in cryptocurrency! Now obviously, if you are truly stupid enough to send them money they are not investing it in crypto, but that’s the new line. Like it wasn’t horrifying eno

So today has been a day! At 5 am one of my darling dogs, Kona, the largest but youngest of the pack, decided to vomit all over the bedroom. He can’t ever just stand still when he’s sick, he has to walk, trailing the mess in as many places as possible. I happened to be in the middle of a good dream which is a rare occurrence these days so his timing was especially unappreciated. I crawled out of bed and made my way downstairs to get what I needed to clean it up, went back

So when I had to sell my house a few months ago the realtor politely suggested I get a rental instead of trying to stay until the house actually sold. This was a very wise man who knew my then current state of “bat shit crazy” might possibly put off a potential buyer. In addition to my ever changing state of mind and the unpredictable consequences of it, I have 3 dogs. These are not just little hide them in your purse dogs, these are three, throw a saddle on them and ride

At some point in school whether it was health class or sex ed I don’t remember, we had a lesson on hormones. How hormones are what makes us boy crazy as teenagers because we are suddenly flooded with them. How we need them to make babies but then around 50 when all the babies have been had, they go away. The end. Turns out there is more to the story. It seems once again I got the storybook version because had I been told the full story, I would have lodged a complaint t

So about 4 1/2 months ago my ex-fiancé and partner of nearly 6 years promptly informed me our relationship was over. It had been a shit show almost from the beginning but there was something there, at least for me, that was worth the fight to try and make it work. This was, it turns out, a one sided fight for us. Now I’m 6 years older and a little worse for wear, a little less caring, a little more cynical and a whole hell of a lot more over anything that interferes with th

Two nights ago I was talking to a good friend of mine and like myself, she hasn’t always felt like life has worked out as advertised. We were given great parents, siblings to play with, safe neighborhoods to grow up in and decent schools to gain an education from. We were shown that the world was a relatively simple, logical place. You behaved, you learned, you worked hard and then you got to spend your life with the man you loved, doing a job that the good Lord designed f

God was watching silently as her tears fell down She couldn’t see and didn’t feel his presence all around Her shattered heart and broken life is all that she could see This was not at all the life she prayed for it to be Patiently he held her hurt and whispered in her sleep You are my child but in this life, some things you cannot keep Although you’re hurt, he could not stay some things just have to go And there are times my sweetest child when I must tell you no So dry y